Board Thread:General Discussion/@comment-24037865-20140803071208

Lately I've been turning bitter and I just feel like I need to rant about it.

So yeah.

First things first - I was originally Lil Miss Sun, one of the very first users, even older than some of the most popular users. I only found three users older than me - C H U N K Y, Pookiefan (but she left) and The Fennec Fox. I think only Fennec counts at this point.

I wasn't normally the attention seeker, who didn't give a damn if I wasn't known. I was an awesome, funny and happy user.

Then came the fights.

The pointless fights that drove people to the verge of suicide. Angered by this, I quit my Lil Miss Sun account.

But I realised I missed this wiki and I made a new account named Sia Silvia. I tried to act I was new, tried to make people believe I never came here.

EpicNugget joined then. I was noob best friends with her, but then I didn't feel rare anymore. So I revealed that I was actually Lil Miss Sun, but only two or three people actually read that. Most people thought I was still simple Sia Silvia, the new nice and friendly user.

I changed my name once more, this time to Symphonic Taco.

Taco started out as an insane and hilarious user, just like Lil Miss Sun. But I still didn't have my rare feel which I wanted so much. I renamed my Lil Miss Sun account to The Symphonic Taco with Sun's previous edits and date of joining.

I don't think anyone noticed.

Then came the vandalism.

Honestly, I think the vandal was just bored and hated pookies, so he ruined the wiki. Me and Eartheditor9cp did most of the damage control, but Nugget was made admin instead.

Fluttergon expresses her opinions freely, which I can respect. She didn't like that Nugget, a new user, became admin before she, an old user, did. But Flutter's already a chat mod while I am just an ordinary user older and more worthy of even just chat mod. But I was never even noticed, so how could I be one?

Later, Earth demanded that she should be an admin. I agree with her. She spent days fixing the pages, undoing vandal edits and keeping the wiki in one piece.

I also helped fix the wiki a lot, but a little less than Earth. Earth was made a rollback. But I'm still ordinary.

There was a thread called "Remember the old days?" where Fluttergon mentioned that she, Omegasonic2000 and Earth were the remaining survivors of the Dark Age. Later it came to be that Flutter, Omega, Earth, Pookieluv, and Pfejz were the remaining survivors of the Dark Age. I was older than all of them but I was once again forgotten.

I used to be cheerful and not caring if I was ignored, right? But when Fluttergon argued that I'm not one of the survivors because I'm now known as The Symphonic Taco, I cracked. I turned into Taco, the person using humour to hide her anger and bitterness.

I'm bitter and angry now, trying to turn a new leaf but never getting the chance to. Creating new wikis to start a new community, but people from my past ruining it.

Whatever I am, bitter, angry or terrible, I'm not weak. I'm not gonna quit. I'm fighting back. I'll make enemies, make people think that I'm horrid, but I'll still prevail.

But I doubt anyone will notice. 